tak bisa bicara

ikut hati rindu.. sedih.. teringat..

ikut hati jugak.. degil.. keras.. ego!

baru tau, keras jgk hati ni..

dah lama x contact org2 d rumah.. almost a week.mmg rase lost tp hati keras.

haish~

mungkin luka tempoh hari belum terubat.

mungkin menunggu mereka yg bersuara kembali.

tp sungguh hati ini rindu.

tp masih.. berkata pd diri, biar hati sembuh dulu. namun sampai bila?

dan air mata..

tetap aku sayang mereka.

Ya Allah, peliharalah mereka. Ampunilah aku.. T_T

~merajuk~

*updated:

i wrote this post at 4.51 pm

my mom called at 5.04 pm

^_^

~tak merajuk dah~

yeay! wee..

*updated.. again :P

my dad called at 9.17 pm (ayah ckp nk dtg UTP kalo xbizi next weekend)

waaa~ menjerit dlm tepon. hee.. :D

~da lupakan luka hari itu~

;) ;) ;) :D

conteng spontan :P

pabila rasa ragu2 mula bertamu

di benak fikiran tak kuduga

ragu dgn keputusan yg dipilih

meski hati tenang

namun ku masih tertanya-tanya

layakkah aku untuk berada di sini

menerima kurnia yg xpernah ku jangka

maka..

ku sandarkan kembali kpd Dia

Sang Pemilik Hati

yg mengurniakan gerak hati

dan segala rasa yg ada di dalamnya

berserah atas segala ketentuan

moga itu yg terbaik

dan damaikanlah hatiku dgn ketentuan-Mu

:)

(berkata dgn diri sendri)

~mencuba memahami diri sendiri, bukan senang~

i heart u~

Salaam..

I'm home :) home in Kuala Terengganu~
My parents fetched me up at the bus station early this mornin. After settling with breakfast together with all my famly members, I passed out.. (tido la maknenye tuh, xsedar2 da terbongkang atas katil. Ish3~ Da lme xnek bus lame cm td, penat yg amat~)
Then when i woke up in my room, the 1st thing i said to the 1st person i saw out of my door, which is my maid, was...

"Bibik, umi ade?"
"Ade, tgh mandi.."
"Ayah ade?"
"Ade, dlm bilik.."
"Ok.."
:)

Hee. I guess I've come back to be their little girl again. Even umor da nk msok 20 but still I'm their very2 spoiled little girl :D They're the 1st thing I think of everytime I wake up, tp kt UTP xde r nk tny rumet soalan cm kt atas tu. Konpem2 Eamy jwb diorg xde, huhuh. I guess I'm just afraid that they will disappear even I know they are in this house, here with me.. Though not for long, mlm selasa da kne balik utp smule.. Plus, mlm sok ayah da fly ke kL atas urusan keje. Huu~ Alhamdulillah, masih diberi kesempatan utk bertemu mereka.. ^_^

"Ya Allah! Ampunilah bagiku segala dosaku dan juga dosa dua ibu bapaku dan kasihanilah mereka keduanya sebagaimana mereka memelihara dan mendidikku di masa kecil."

Dan adik-adik ku.. Wa, Dekbi, Ana.. I'm glad tgk korg sehat :) Alhamdulillah..We grew older day by day, but we still laugh together, doing crazy things.. Like lil kids, haha. Memeningkan kepala ummi ngan ayah itu suda pasti. Hee :P And oh my dear cousin the best in the world, Kinah~ Miss u so damn much. Cpt2 la weyh dtg cni.. T_T Urm.. esok nk g kawen.. eh bukan2, esk nk g mjlis kawen sedara~ Suke tgk hari bahagia org lain ^_^

Alahai, touching lak post. Bru sebulan xblik umah kot. Lalala~ Juz terase sdeyh sbb jarang calling umah sem ni, kesibukan hidup kampus bkn alasan. Huh~

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

~i HEART u~
;)
(can i say?)

a fast scribble in the morning light

How did we get here?

I missed to notice the beginning..

i do not know where the end

for i do not want to see the end

ever.

I want to stay here.

I want it to be true :)

seLamaT PaGi ^_^

apekah?

Salaam..

Td blik dr surau V2 teros rse huyung-hayang, tido flat atas katil skejap xigt dunia dh. Hahha, kepala ku pening tp syukur quiz da abes, tasksheet technical presentation da submit, esk da nk balek umah. Xkesa la stress sket2 sekali-sekala kn :) Ni da bgn tdo xtau nk tdo blik kol bpe da, sok still ad kls~ Urm, pastu td tgk kt ym ad offline msg :

saat terakhir st 12

jangan pernah berubah - st12

oh la la,apekah maksud si penghantar. nk tny tp orgnye da offline pulak~ aiseh. Jangan Pernah Berubah da pnh dgr, dlu Tasha penah rekemen dgr. Yg Saat Terakhir tu xpnh dgr lg. Td br tgk lirik, huwaa~ dua2 lagu psl bnde yg sama. huhu. nk tau psl ape search la sdri, xsanggup nk tulis kt cni. eceh~ mungkin ad ssuatu yg cuba disampaikn si penghantar, atau mungkin hny dia mau berkongsi lagu2 best (xbest pon,lagu sedih tahap jiwang air mata :P) tp 2 b honest ku kurg ske ST12 sbb dia nyanyi lagu P.u.s.P.a tuh,lagu tu lirik dia senget r.Hehe~

......atau mungkin dia jgk igt peristiwa setahun yg lalu, pd tarikh yg sama as now? haha. aku xharap siapa2 igt even i did write a post about dat in dis blog dlu :P after all, we've agreed on that one year ago, right? :)

*moga kamu baik2 saja :)*

ESOK BALEK YEAY!

^_^

EH, SATU LAGI..

SELAMAT HARI LAHIR KE-20 BUAT SHBT TERSAYANG NURUL IZZATI WAHIB~

SYG SYG SYG KAMU!

:D

favourite quote ;)

"Before you, my life was like a moonless night. Very dark, but there were stars—points of light and reason… And then you shot across my sky like a meteor. Suddenly everything was on fire; there was brilliancy, there was beauty. When you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over the horizon, everything went black. Nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by the light. I couldn’t see the stars anymore. And there was no more reason for anything."

(quoted from New Moon by Stephenie Meyer)

*i hope i can see the stars forever :)