unpleasant sleep

cukup2 lah mimpi bnde2 pelik..
penat..konfius bile bgn pagi2..blurr~
nanti kang tertukar mimpi dgn realiti.. T__T

i dont want what there is in my dream. i want what there is in my reality. maybe not what.. but who. and i'm thankful for my reality is by far.. still a reality :)

:: Ku takkan bisa menjadi lebih dari apa yang terdaya namun ku tetap berjanji akan masih mencuba ::

the rest is still unwritten :)

written in the stars

a million miles away

a message to the main..

seasons come and go

but i will never change

and i'm on my way..~

~Julai 2011~

~Jun 2010~

~Februari 2010~

Alhamdu Lillah..

^__^

Pokok.. kenapa pokok?

Tersesat malu bertanya

Tak tahu tak tahu ke mana

Terlalu banyak alasannya

Ku terdiam

Menyusur di kaki lima

Terlihat bayang wajah kelmarin

Tersentuh hati bagai luruh

Tanya sama pokok apa sebab goyang

Jawab angin yang goncang

Terbang burung terbang

Patah sayap diduga

Seandainya rebah

Kau masih ada

Terlalu mahu dan mahu

Terlupa apa yang perlu

Terlalu banyak alasannya

Duduk terdiam

Tak mudah namun tak susah

Terserah atas pilihan

Tersentuh hati mula luruh

(listening to this song for the first time, I despise it. But after looking at the lyrics, it makes me ponder.. and smile)

Kelakar tapi comel..sort of~

Question : 

"Ustaz, kenapa ya hati perempuan ni kadang² tiba² je rasa sedih tanpa sebab. Ada orang kata syaitan yang ganggu! Ada petua tak untuk elakkan hati kita ni sedih? Kadang² bila bangun pagi rasa sedih, kadang² rasa macam rindu...Tapi tak tau rindu pada siapa!"

Answer from Ustaz Azhar Idrus : 

"PERKARA BIASA. HATI PEREMPUAN MEMANG

HALUS, HANYA LELAKI SEJATI YANG MAMPU MENJADI PENAWAR!"

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mule2 bce soalan da mcm ase annoying.. hati perempuan xde la selalu ase cm2. yeye je kan yg btanye tu. hee :)

da bace jwpn ase nk gelak pulak. amboi ustaz.. hehe :P

hati perempuan mmg halus, ye setuju.. lelaki sejati jadi penawar? perghh~ i bet ustaz gurau2 je tuh kan kan? :P

nway ustaz azhar idrus mmg best kalo dgr ceramah dia but kne pandai2 extract isi nye la ^^

p/s : tapi kalau lelaki itu adalah Rasulullah saw.. mmg penawar segalanya lah. selawat dan salam ke atas Baginda.. :)

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jgn terpedaya dgn keindahan luaran..

nanti sendiri yg menanggung pedih.

sudah..

xmahu pedulik. sudah..

dingin.kosong.hilang.

semua.hilang..

bila diluah.. pedih. simpan. laaagi pedih. huwaa~ :P

*mengalir dalam jiwa. tidak kelihatan di pandangan mata.wink2 ;)

satu setengah

looking back......

the first one ended after 6 months~

the second one ended after exactly 1 year~

and currently......

the third one is now 1 year & 6 months~

boo ya! i dont believe the number means anything anymore. for all i know, there's no reason why what i have currently needs to end in any way or any time. not always a bed of roses, maybe full of hurting thorns accompanied by uninviting tears but... i'd rather stay here. for more coming years and months.. well, hopefully God's willing i'll b strong to move on. it is one of the greatest give anyway~ :)

still walking.. ^^

537 days have passed..

1 year 5 months 3 weeks and 1 day since it all begun..

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and the counting will never stop..

not even until u lose count!

hee~

^__^